Eat. Sleep. Repeat.

The Start 7

I am still losing fluid, small amount through out the day, every day. 

They weight me today and I’ve lost weight. I don’t understand how. I been eating so much snacks, thank you to everyone who brought me treats, I ate them all and all the hospital food. I am consciously trying to consume and gain weight. 

Also did you know family sized peanut mnms says it has 7 servings, what lies, obviously it’s 2!

Despite the fact that pooping is super scary, yes I said it. The last thing I want to do is put any pressure towards that area of my body. 

More ops and more bloods taken. I’m losing track of all the poking and prodding. I officially give blood like a champion. 

Here we go again, I overheard in the doctors visit my new roommate has gastro. Did they forget I’m a high infestation risk? Gastro would end my chances real fast. 

I feel like a dick for complaining again about a roommate but surely someone who is on infection watch shouldn’t be put with a gastro patient. 

I texted my midwife and she gave me strength to advocate for myself. The staff apologised real fast this time, moved her and sanitised everything.

These things get my anxiety rising and I am really trying my best to stay level. 

Refocus

Refocus

Refocus