A Day Off

NICU 17

Day 44 - 49

Gestation 29 - 30 weeks


Lee empathise with my silly parking debacle. He said I need a day off, I said maybe. I’ll see how I feel tomorrow but I know he’s right. It takes a toll 44 days in row and everyday is a hard day even the so called quiet days. 


Although it’s hard to have a day off when we are in level 4 lockdown and there’s this funny little toddler hanging around. 


I would have loved a real coffee, runny eggs benedict and a pedicure but that will have to wait. It’s more like a hospital break than a personal day off.


Sylvie and I had milk and cookies, we made a reading fort and went on a long walk. 


Kayden is in the kilo club! 1065grams


He is being given diuretics for edema and his feeds are up to 11ml/2hr. He is starting to get grumpy at the end of a feed causing desats. They will shift him to 1hr continuous feed and a 1hr vent to allow the air in his belly out. 


And we got kicked out of kilo club, 995grams, I blame the diuretics. He was born around the 25% percentile for weight and has dropped to the 10th. The gains have been so slow, it’s really frustrating. The bigger he is the more strength he will have, but we can’t seem to get there. 


His oxygen is coming down, hanging around 25%. 


Today is Father’s Day and we decide to go for a morning family walk. Only it wasn’t a family walk because Kayden couldn’t be there, I had a little cry. 


They are talking about reintroducing the fortifier. Im a bit hesitant following the NEC scare and we are not yet back at full feeds and the vaccines are tomorrow. I want to keep the strategy of only doing one thing at a time. Right now it’s all talk, it’s not being added yet, the dietitian will come and have a chat before they do. 


Monday morning was a busy one. Lee, Sylvie and Steven (mini schnauzer) got soaked on their walk. We put both Sylvie and Steven in the bath together, it was really cute. She was helping to wash him and pouring water on his back. Then the courier came and it was Sylvies new bike. We didn’t think it was going to ship in the lockdown so we’re all pretty excited. Lee and Sylvie put it together and we take it out on the driveway. She figured it so fast and is already lifting her feet zooming around. 


It’s hard to leave home today, it’s been such a big fun morning for Sylvie. 


But I have to go, Kayden is due his vaccines and he needs his mama too. I get into hospital and our room is busy bee. The nurse explains that our room buddy is getting surgery in the room today and I can’t be in there. She can’t confirm the timing of when it’ll start or how long it’ll go for. While I’m grateful it’s not kayden having surgery I’m still upset to be kicked out. I left this big happy fun day with Sylvie to hold Kayden and now I can’t. 


I pop off to have some comfort food and the nurse finds me and says we may have 30 minutes. We get Kayden out so he can have his vaccines in my arms for comfort. He let out the tiniest little cry for each shot in the leg. He definitely didn’t like that, his heart rate went to 215 and it took a few minutes to come down. I ended up getting a 40 minute cuddle before being asked to leave.


I headed back to the Mums lounge with my pump and called Lee. They don’t know when I’ll be allowed back in the room,  he said to stay at hospital as long as I needed. So I hung around to get my long cuddle. 


I wish both my babies were home. 

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