Readmitted

NICU 10

Wee man hanging out in his bed

Day 16 - 17 

Gestation 25 weeks

I went into Women’s Assessment in the morning. I spoke to a lady at reception and explained what was going on. She said there is a wait to see a doctor could be hours so I said I’m in NICU and doctors rounds will be shortly, can I wait there. We did a little back and forth and I end up leaving frustrated. She didn’t understand at all. She wanted me to sit there in a waiting room for unknown amount hours. I didn’t get my cuddle yesterday because of the blood transfusion so I’m feeling guilty and want to be with him. Did I mention NICU and Women’s Assessment are on the same floor, so close you count the steps it takes to go down the hallway.

I get back to NICU, the rounds haven’t come yet and I get a text from women’s Assessment saying I have an appointment now. Now as in the current time. I explained it to the NICU nurse and she said she would text me when the doctor rounds come into our pod. So I walk back and she put me in a little room. Im waiting, waiting, waiting and getting annoyed, nearly finished an entire beanie. Why did they tell me to come back to sit in a room when I could be sitting with my baby one ward away. 

I give up, when back to the women’s assessment reception and explained again. I now need to pump as well as wanting to be there for doctor rounds. Another women was there who was more understanding and said she would call when ready.

Hours later, I got a text from a ward midwife who will come to me in NICU later today. The midwife explained it could possibly be the uterus shrinking and shifting back into the pelvis. She said to monitor it and seek help if I get another big fresh bleed.

Onto Kayden, he gets another ultrasound and it is unchanged. He is still showing a minor grade 2 IVH, the doctors seem confident it will absorb into the body on its own. 

His heart scan showed the pda valve is still open. They are having trouble getting a good measurement in centimetres. They will not do another round of the drugs because it has renal repercussions but will continue to monitor it. 

He will have another try soon off the ventilator and that may help the body to naturally close what is left of the pda valve. The other side being if it does not close he may end up with surgery. I don’t want to roll heart surgery around in my thoughts so let’s hope this self closes. 

Another long day, with no cuddle because of all the scans and I go to bed early. Only to be woken up at midnight by. . . yup you guessed it, blood. Another and bigger bleed. I can’t even get up off the toilet cause it just coming. It’s really scary, I’m in no pain causally sitting down losing a lot of blood. 

Lee comes into have a look. We called my midwife, no answer. We called the hospital midwife, no answer. We call women’s assessment and she tells me to call an ambulance. Well that seems over the top and my last ride is still haunting me. So we call Julie and she comes around. We need someone in the house with Sylvie sleeping and this way we don’t have to wake her up. 

Lee drives me to the hospital and I get a room in women’s Assessment unit. More poking and prodding; IV, bloods, speculum, physical assessment. They have given me oral and IV antibiotics and an ultrasound booked for the morning.

I’m so frustrated to be readmitted, I really don’t want to be here as a patient again. There is something about the IV line in my arm that bugs me so much. At least I can wander across to NICU and see Kayden in the middle of the night.